"Wa-hoo"

I.Q. If you have not seen this movie, get on it. Fantastic. I think Walter Matthau is one of the cutest men ever. So I'm sitting on the couch watching this fantastic movie, in my Thing 1 and Thing 2 onesie and drinking hot apple cider, and I have about 30 million things running through my head. Most of these, I am sorry to say, you won't be reading about. For different reasons, don't worry. Most of them don't matter, some of them no one, (including me sometimes), won't understand, and others, well, too many people can read this - hi babe. :) Anyway, it's been an interesting couple of weeks. I don't know if it's stress, or lack of sleep, but I swear I'm preggers sometimes. I've been getting upset over the smallest things. EVERYTHING annoys me some days. I have no idea why. And it's not only annoyance, but every other emotion as well. Friday in the middle of ballet I had a breakdown. Came out of no where. I just realized that I'm not THAT great of a dancer. I'm watching the others in class, and I'm surrounded by these amazing girls that look simply BEAUTIFUL. And most of them just dance for fun. They love it, but have other plans for life. And there I stand. Wondering - should I really hope for a spot in a company when I graduate? I don't think I would make it. And then it hits me - I have done nothing else with my life. Dance. That's all that it's ever been about. What the heck am I going to do with my life if I don't get into a company? ANYWAY, I walk out of class, cry in the bathroom stall for 5-10 minutes, and came back for rehearsal where I'm supposed to act sexy, ha ha. Point of the story, is that things like that kept happening last week. So it is my goal this week to just be happy. To not let little things bother me. I mean, I'm a happy person in general, I really am. I love life. So I'll let you know how things go. In other news, Ballet in Concert is coming up! Crazy. It's going to be a fun show. Buy your tickets people, because I haven't put this much blood, sweat and tears into this show for nothing!